My Miraculous Healing

My Miraculous Healing

Written by Marijke Verkerk april 2010

My personal healing will ever be the most convincing evidence of our subconscious powers. Nearly eight years ago I solved a near death experience by using the healing power of my subconscious mind which created me, and still maintains and governs all my vital functions. And there is more! At the age of 43 I became a mother, this alone is not very unusual as many woman these day’s consciously choose to have children at a later stage in life. What made it special in my case was that a year before my child’s was born, I was single. My son’s father and I had decided to break up. We loved each other truly from the heart, but our age difference, he is 15 years younger than I ‘am, and the differences in culture, religion and our upbringing seemed too much, and so our convictions won the battle! I felt devastated and couldn’t find any reason to continue in life. I shared my frustration with God in my prayers and begged Him for help. During these prayers I developed the habit of intuitive writing, this is writing without consciously thinking or in other words; I automatically wrote down the words that came up. In these letters I was told that my lover and I would reunite and I would get pregnant with our son. 42 days later I received a phone call from my man who asked me to come ‘home’ and make a child with him. I went and became pregnant. Isn’t God’s power amazing?

       I also want to tell you about my personal healing because I feel sure that it will help others to trust the same Infinite Healing Presence, lodged in the subconscious depths of us all.

 In 2002, I was diagnosed with a dangerous virus. This virus called C.M.V attacked my body in many ways. It infected my brain, paralyzed my arm’s and infected my liver and kidney. My doctor told me I had only 5 percent chance to survive this ordeal. No medicine existed to cure this virus and I was send home.

After this experience and despite all worries around me, I realized that the ‘thought’ of dying had never entered my mind. I could see myself in the’ future’ being healthy and happy, and deep down I ‘knew’ this to be true! During the time of my recovery, which took me around two years, I went to see a doctor of homeopathy who subscribed me all kinds of ‘natural’ drops to support and clean my liver and kidney. Homeopathy is the art and science of healing by safe, gentle, and natural methods; the Homeopathic remedies are derived from raw, natural resources generally from the vegetable and animal kingdoms as well as from minerals. Although some remedies are used in less diluted form, most remedies in general use are highly diluted yet potentized; they are believed to have some, yet unidentified, physical energy that helps to stimulate the body’s own healing power. I realized that my illness came from the way I was thinking about myself and life, and that I needed to change my outlook on things. From this time on my research started, I wanted to know the opinion from scientists and doctors about ‘self healing’ and God. About prayer and about the effect thoughts have on one’s life. I began reading philosophical /spiritual and scientific  books and articles. After a year of sleep, around May in 2003 I felt strong enough to participate in a three year education in ‘Rebalancing’ where I was taught that all daily life impressions are stored in the physical body, whether good or bad. As in my case the ‘bad’ impressions literally “banged” on my door. The thought behind Rebalancing is that all wisdom available lies in one’s body, and the body is one’s home. In order to be able to ‘hear’ this wisdom one needs a clean body and mind. It was obvious for me that the contact between my body and my mind needed to be restored, in order to find the root that caused my physical pain and disease. I learned to meditate which helped quieting my mind and with massage, yoga and breathing exercises I slowly accepted and entered my home (body). Another very important thing I learned was to deal with and let go of my emotions. Due to my illness I found my way back to the voice in my heart, I call ‘God’. I integrated praying in my daily routine which reminded me of the daily conversations I used to have with ‘Him’ as a child. But as I grew older I simply ‘forgot’ about my dearest friend and my fears grew.

        I began analyzing my thoughts and dreams to collect ‘evidence’, and wrote all my findings down. I noticed how everything I asked for he gave, and from this I learned to be very specific in what to ask. Life’s experiences showed me how both healthy and negative thoughts turn into reality, especially when they are backed up by a strong feeling or desire.

While analyzing my thoughts and transforming the negative thoughts into positive thoughts, I practice on controlling my emotions which help me quite down the noise that comes to mind. I try to be mindfulness and to fully enjoy and stay in the ‘now’. At times when I succeed to keep my body and mind in the moment, I notice how easy and peaceful life really is, and how my body responds by being very relaxed. This made me realize the influence my thoughts have towards my body and feelings, ones my thoughts drift into the past or future and starts yapping about things I need to do in the following week, I immediately notice a tightness in my body..

       Thru praying I restore the connection between my heart and my head. The law of life is the law of belief, and belief could be summed up briefly as a thought in your mind. My thoughts, feelings, and believes, make up the condition of my mind, body, and circumstances. Analyzing my thoughts helps me understand what I’m doing and why I ‘am doing things.

Essentially, answered prayer is the realization of your heart’s desire. I pray and express my desires and gratefulness many times a day before I continue with my daily occupations. I especially pray before falling asleep and when I wake up. At these times the rhythm of the brain runs slower which leaves my mind quiet and sleepy. This ‘dreamy’ state is called the ‘Theta’ brain wave. The subconscious is proven by neurologists receptive for new thoughts and information during the time of the Theta wave. I also want to explain to you the important role the subconscious mind has in healing and improving the quality of your life.

 The Creative Power of Your Subconscious

Your subconscious is your Book of Life. What is impressed in the subconscious is expressed in your outer life. The subconscious mind is the invisible force that mediates and directs all involuntary body functions like your heartbeat, breathing, the growing of your hair and nails, the metabolism. It is the hard disc of one’s memory where all automated thoughts, habits, behavior, and responses are seated. Because the subconscious is slave to our command or conscious, it will do anything we consciously tell or ask it to do, and give. The information on this hard disc is gathered in the first six years of your life. During these six years a child’s brain functions in a hypnagogic state of awareness in order to copy and learn the basic elements of life. The meanings we give to our experiences in life makes up our belief systems. The subconscious is the creative, imaginative part of our mind and the power of the imagination is limitless. Anything we can conceive or imagine can come into being. All great artists, thinkers, and inventors learn to utilize their imaginative powers within the subconscious. When we allow our imagination to be ruled by fear, disastrous results can occur because what we imagine can come into being. Your subconscious does not discriminate.  It does its best to create what we picture or imagine.  It will work just as hard for us to create the negative imagery we present to it as well as positive imagery. The good news is our benevolent subconscious is always ready and willing to follow our instructions. And we can always change the ways in which we use our imagination.  We can choose to cultivate our imagination to create what is always in our highest good. The subconscious mind serves as a gateway between the conscious and the Creative Level of Mind which is our direct line with God.  All answers and questions for that matter are held in the Creative Level of Mind, and whenever we choose to become quiet, we can access the answers to our questions.  Developing a relationship with our higher wisdom is one of the most beneficial things we can do for ourselves. This higher wisdom has different names, Soul, Holy Spirit, Higher Self, and is often thought of as a kind of intermediary between a human being and the Creator. . Most spiritual traditions hold that there is a higher wisdom within us that can be reached through prayer. The one thing these traditions have in common is that you must enter into a quiet state of mind (theta state), for example through in prayer in order to access the higher wisdom within. In this state of mind the subconscious mind is receptive for any new information given. Your amazing subconscious mind never sleeps.  So, whenever you decide to change your mind about who you are, your subconscious mind is at your service.  All that is required is to believe you deserve it, desire, commitment, and silence. 

My talent was revealed in a Dream

       As a child in the age of ten I loved to draw, but due to many unfriendly remarks of my teacher I came to believe that I wasn’t good enough, and I gave up. Thirty years later I received a dream, in my dream I saw myself effortlessly making beautiful drawings. While excited and overwhelmed discovering this gift I didn’t understand how this suddenly could happen. Then (still in my dream) I heard a voice say; “You must continue you have a talent in drawing”.

I immediately woke up and wrote everything down. (In that time I kept a booklet and a pen next to my pillow). Somehow this dream was different, and what if its message is true?  Determent and excited to find out I bought my self color pencils and paper. But I had no idea where or how to begin and before I knew all kinds of doubt came to mind. I realized I needed to first become silent and sat down to meditate. I thanked God for showing me the dream with my new talent, and slowly my mind and body relaxed. By the time I finished my drawing my husband and his brother arrived home. They were surprised to see me drawing and both took a look at what I was doing. My brother in law turned to my husband with a big smile and said; “He man, what the hell are you feeding her”!   Today I have an online Art Gallery where if you like, you can see my work.


        The subconscious mind functions as the messenger that conveys all our thoughts to the creative Level of mind whom I call God. When we become relaxed, a clear channel of communication opens between the conscious, the subconscious and God. When we are in a deep state of relaxation, communication between these minds is at its clearest and most powerful level.  The communication with the Creator works both ways.  Not only do we speak with Him, He also communicates with us.  An example of communication coming from God through the subconscious and into the conscious mind is called intuition. We all have intuitions and “gut feelings” that seem to magically pop into our minds.  Intuitional thoughts and imaginative thoughts come from God guiding us the way.

One thing led to another and intuitively during my research on the internet I entered a site with teachings in Metaphysical science. I had never ever heard of Metaphysics but I knew this was something I needed to investigate. Reading the site’s introduction gave me Goosebumps that covered my entire body. I felt like a happy child in a candy store. There were some many interesting topics to choose from! My decision to enter the classes was quickly made. With this education I unexpected found what deep down I was looking for. I never knew what to do with my life although there were many things I liked doing but obviously not enough, and sad enough but true, I ‘saw’ myself as a person that didn’t have the brains to study. I recently passed my Master’s degree and I will continue for my Doctorate degree!

Scientific Discoveries

During my research I managed to find a lot of information that helped me understand more about life and my recovery. One amongst many of the scientific articles I read was the finding concerning our DNA and Genetics that totally explained the influence my thoughts had towards my healing. But first we need to understand the role of our DNA, and this is what I found in the Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia; “D.N.Ais a nucleic acid that contains the genetic instructions used in the development and functioning of all known living organisms and some viruses. The main role of DNA molecules is the long-term storage of information”.

Recent developments in cellular science are heralding an important evolutionary turning point.

For almost fifty years medical students were taught (and still are) that our health, character and fate were genetically predetermined, a concept referred to as genetic determinacy.  Today a radically new understanding is unfolding at the leading edge of science. Cellular biologists now recognize that the environment, the external universe and our internal physiology, and more importantly, our thoughts and perception of the environment, directly control the activity of our genes.


There is freedom in allowing circumstances to be what they are and people to be who they are, whether you agree with them or not.
So, how in the world do you accept situations and people that stand for something you don’t? Or that want the opposite of what you want? We tend to think we can’t have it both ways. So what do we do? We push back! And yet, understanding the Law of Attraction — that whatever you are focused on you attract more of — when you are focused on what you do not want in an effort to defeat it or resist it, you are not allowing what you do want to flow to you.

In other words, be more consciously selective about where you choose to focus your attention. Rather than going into resistance about something you don’t want or don’t agree with, flip your thoughts around to what you do want and make ‘Always Yes!’ your slogan

Happiness is often thought of as a state of mind. This assumption is both right and wrong. It is right because when you are happy, you usually have happy thoughts in your mind. You have a positive outlook and your mood is generally elevated. Your outlook on life is one of hope and abundance.

What I propose is that happiness is a state of BEING. This has to do with perception. Your mind constantly gathers information about its environment through your physical senses. Your perception of sight does not exist in your eye; it exists in your mind. Your brain takes electrical impulses and translates them to sensory information.

If you can change your perception of the world into a positive one, then you can unlock sustaining happiness. Sure, there are moments in life that do not make us happy. If you exist in a state of happiness, other emotions such as sadness will not be so deep and enduring. You will return to your state of happiness much quicker if you cultivate it.

About  the Author

Marijke Verkerk, Europe /Netherlands, Mother & Wife, Master of Metaphysical science Msc, Artist, Certified Rebalancer, National speaker in the NetherlandsEurope.                                                                                                                                     

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